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暧昧--表白--冷战--尴尬--不理睬--摊牌--不再是朋友

这样值得吗？

自然一点，很难吗？

这么不大方的表现，真的很令人讨厌

我怀念之前的暧昧，却讨厌之后的冷漠

你铁石心肠的心，我再怎么做，都敲不开你的心

无题

入夜，最难熬的事，就是不能入眠

会悄悄走进这里，也代表了我的那份情绪

找不到可以释放的地方

今晚，挺想放肆一下

就是败在爱情

每次会让我自己变得不像自己的

就是爱情这回事

才能让我无法控制自己的情绪

无法控制自己

5年了

对你，还有对你

我竟然用了同一种方式

一种彻底让人失败的方式

是我太不懂得经营爱情，还是太不懂得你 

我想，同样的方式给了同样的你

我还是今天的我

不懂得管理情绪的我

我渴望爱情

却不是随便渴望你

我的真诚都是女人的压力

只有放荡不羁，才是王道？

我的心，掏出来了，好像收不回去

我气

他这么对你，你却死心塌地

他走了，你却还在原地

我疼惜你

但，我是不是太想要拥有你？

所谓的你幸福，我就开心

到底对不对？

原来爱情真的没有对与不对

女人也不是笨与不笨

只是那个我，对于不对而已

好，我不急

我慢慢走下去

我总有一天会感动你的

我要证明，是时间的问题

不是我的问题

NZ3

很多人跟我聊天的时候都会问我：“最近过得好吗”
我总会回答他们说：“很好啊，很享受现在的生活。”
其实我是在安慰自己，还是不想让别人太担心呢？
嗯，其实日子不算过得太坏，只是偶尔不顺心
破坏了这个月来美好的心情

日子不见得很轻松，毕竟一分耕耘，一分收获
想要在银行户头多一个0，就得付出更多的时间和精力
所以很简单的，我是店里公认最勤劳的员工
哈哈，年尾的最佳员工奖是没人跟我争的啦
只是我不知道会不会做到那时候罢了
我渐渐的，好像把麦当劳变成我的家了
为了赚钱，16个小时工作让人佩服得五体投地 XD
就连两间店的店长都抢着要我这个抢手货
我不否认我是一个很出色的员工，我希望我可以成为很出色的老板 XD

看样子，我好像很快就会升职了
不行不行，我答应过自己跟家人一定会回去的
但如果升manager, 其实工作待遇还真不错
不行不行，这里没有我的兄弟，我的朋友，我的nasi lemak
回去还有更好的机会跟前途
还是毅然的下定决心，把机票买了，好断自己的后路 XD

为了去玩，为了存钱
我付出了很多时间很多精力去完成这份任务
但不能两全其美啊
希望玩了之后，我还有本事留一笔钱回马来西亚
那我就真的是很厉害了XDD

但是世事哪有完全尽人意的？
前两天车坏了，修理费贵得吓死人
我能怎么办？就把辛辛苦苦赚得钱白白花在破车上
老实说，这的确破坏了我很多计划
我又离我的计划更远了
这就是所谓的计划赶不上变化

前些日子玩了一轮回来，荷包大出血一次
现在积极工作，刚快把荷包填满
重新再出发，走向我美好的旅途
带着美好的回忆，回到我的国家
从新过我应该过得生活
但愿接下来的几个月事事顺心，顺利~ =）

NZ2

another 2 weeks
a lot of things happened make my life so uncertain
I've been frustrated with the situation
think of giving up, fly back to Malaysia
but.... be tough, stay tough
it is not necessary i am making myself suffer at here
to be very honest I haven't start to enjoy my journey
my life here everyday is worried about money, jobs, accommodation & transportation
and especially the most important thing---> food
but it is worth

since i decided to come Auckland
there is no reason for me to say regret
what i can do is only moving forward
save some money, and enjoy the life
i know it is impulse, didn't planned well make our life suffer
but we gain experience

i'm starting to accept it
thou i can't say i am very enjoy at this moment
i know what i suppose to do is making my life being stable
that will be the easiest way to save money
we should look for more opportunity
but it is definitely not now
how will be going in these few months
i cannot imagine
it is the point i make my journey so interesting
i learned that people who never learn in their life

p/s: i try to search out this pretty nice view
      then i will feel won't regret of coming here

i didn't take any photo since i am in Auckland
how sad is it? ='(

NZ1

have been staying at NZ one week
quite a good experience then!
after arrange all the stuff like room, work, car
now come to the stable life
waiting to start my work

after buying the car, i have left not much money
but when i heard from some new friends
they are even more brave than me, which is only bringing $500 come to this beautiful country
i think i'm still the very lucky one, get jobs, accommodation, and car in 1 week

although some people may not appreciate it
have some argument with my mate
but everything pass, back to normal life
i know we should tolerate & help each other
but there is no point if only one person contribute to the group
it is no different that i come alone right?
anyway, time will prove everything
i hope we still can manage to stay together in the coming two months
i'm not selfish, i'm just protecting what i need

forget about this issue
i pretty like this country, people is nice, street is clean
if we ignore about the weather
here is freaking cold for Asian people, especially we are from equatorial country
it is even goes to -2 in the midnight
you cant imagine how to sleep inside a fridge

this is the town where i stay in New Zealand which is called Blenheim
not a very beautiful town, but a lot of jobs is available here recently
the jobs is called vineyard pruning & wrapping
is something like cut the vine tree and tie to the wire



















this is the biggest shopping market in New Zealand, you can see in anywhere
countdown is the place we can visit and buy our own stuff
other than that, we got nothing to do in free time





















this is the house which i stay, is a very nice place
uncle very nice, house very clean, the only thing is too quite
and the other thing is no heater
how suffer if you dun hav heater sleep together with you

remember, my house is 103A, Wither Road, Blenheim 7201
hope i can stay for two months in these beautiful house, and also very nice uncle & aunty

hope i can persist to the end
hope i can explore a new life
hope i can get more friends here
hope NZ give me a unforgettable working holiday

p/s: since i come to this country, why i'm targeting on gaining money
i have a long future which would suffer in works
why not i enjoy this beautiful country?
someone talk to me: though money is important, but explore your mind is more you gain in your trip
i'm gradually believe what he said is true...
maybe one day i will leave out everything and enjoy the life...

7 days in Venice

7 days to go...
I never though i will be in Italy in my forever life
Oops, this is too strict i think
but definitely not now

7 days i will be in Italy, Venice
Venice is the top 10 best visited place in the world
i am glad that i'm going to visit the world best place
not tourist, but a singer
hope we could obtain any compliment in this competition
it will be worth for spending so much money for participant
award from Italy, to Malaysia
be granted as a best performing group
with a bright future
KCC, klang chamber choir
is no longer belongs to Klang
it will represent the whole Malaysia

How good if we awarded in Veniaza Competition?
Go back to dream.
Good night everyone...=)

Insomnia

Slept for 4 hours in the afternoon, it is no doubt that have a insomnia at the midnight.

Nope, it is early morning.

April, is not fool at all.

Heavy stuffs come in and driving me crazy.

Accomplishment is required before i went off to Italy.

Thesis, had make me read the hundred articles that i ever had.

Words, especially thousands of English words.

It is the reason that bring insomnia to me

Accidentally log in to this familiar spaces

Apparently it is empty for few months 

Extraordinary i had written some words here

Commemorate i was insomnia, and a long tortured midnight.

p/s: Perhaps i have a cheerful Italy trip. Good nite world~